As Of Now I Think You Got Me Wrong (12-28-2006)

 My mission to discover more on the habits of this strange creature, the human, goes well. They seem to have a tendency to think and talk only about themselves, while simultaneously placing themselves in situations more difficult than necessary, due (I believe) to some elemental sense of wanting to add complexity to their daily minutiae, purposely, in an attempt to, in turn, add a sense of adventure to the lives. Normalcy is no longer normal when you have to fight your way to get there.

A great deal of faith is placed in what has occured or been suggested before them. Meaning, it appears they see the deeper mysteries of the universe as some how under a cumulative effort to be discovered by their race en masse, instead of simply to be redefined by succeeding generations, as we do. This seems to lead to an inordinate amount of self-guilt due to not succeeding on the level of their fore-fathers and parents, while seeming to forget the factor of time, somehow holding the standards of anywhere from 30 to 60 years in the past as to be pursued presently.

As per their intercourse habits, this remains the area of greatest confusion. I suggest deeper study and further gathering of evidence, but my initial report follows thusly: Imagine purposely tearing yourself mentally in half. They seem to engage in some sort of massive intellectual break: their brain wants one thing, but they seem to believe their pursuit will be massively foiled if they express any hint of their desire in their physical signals, or in conversation, and instead act in a manner that does it's best to suggest nothing of the sort. In fact, often going so far as to attempt to convince the object of their desire the very opposite; that they are NOT wanted. This can be kept on for hours or even days, some reports of weeks long, unbelievable as it may sound. As I mentioned above, this can only be successful by engaging in a heavy mental split; to want one thing, and purposely act like you don't. Although it may sound reminiscent of psychosis characteristics, I assure you, it is common business on this planet. Many reports have returned stating this, with multiple agents in the field, of all caliber.

My next report will deal with the effects of this ritual, both mentally and socially on subjects who engage in it, as well as the prevalence of cultural guilt saturating this experience, (instead of seen as natural by all other creatures previously under study) and how the humans seem somehow to regret and shame themselves from it.